Ashes to Ashes...

This will be the last blog to this site. . . i feel i have changed so much since my last post. So i will be continuing on with a new blog..... http://frantic-mind.blogspot.com Check out lets just say its a new chapter in the story of my life, even thats the most cliche line ever used!

Thanks to everyone

song-girl

=] x

THE END!

At this point....

Ok so my last blog, i left sitting as a Draft in my folder... left in dark incoherent space. Until now.
I didnt publish the blog at first as i was unsure who would read it i.e My Rock. I was worried what he would think, but ive realised, that i am a 16 year old. Free from all attachments. I rule my own mind and i can think freely. Like today, ah what a day!

I had a Volleyball Tournament, at this tournament both sexes played at the same time but not against eachother. It was like a dream, teams of young, fit, athletic boys all in the same Gymnasium as us. Of corse our 2 boys teams from school played. Our Senior team must be one of the best looking bunch of boys in the whole region. So perving, i mean supporting them was great fun. Song of the moment - Hot Summer, Rhys.

What a day, yet tomorrow i have no bio tomorrow and Paolo isnt there on Fridays, he has Sailing Academy .... Maybe i should take up sailing.

As for My Rock he is still the same heroic guy i dream of, but can never be with.....well not yet.

Song-girl

Y no Phone calls?

Wow its incredible how much I'm missing you, i mean no average person would believe it! I think about you all day and right now all i can think of saying is a cheesy pick up-line, that's used to often " Babe you must tired, cos you been running through my mind all day".

I don't know if its flattering to tell someone that you haven't been able to get outta there mind. But it feels like every second I'm wondering where you are, and what you re doing and of corse always wishing you were here and not there. Its like the thought of you cant escape from my mind, like i have no power of what it thinks because it will always be you.

I miss our nightly phone calls chatting about sweet nothings and your infectious laugh. I miss hearing you say ' i love you' or words to that affect. All in all i miss you, and cant wait to see you again. To see your smile, to feel your embrace, to hear your laugh and smell your scent?? haha that's not creepy. I will never refer to you as just a friend, because you mean so much more. No matter what happens in our futures. You will always be special to me, and mean so much to me. Your not like anyone else, you connect with me on such a more personal level ever since that fateful day when you put cucumber in my cake.

I love you and always will.

Song Of The Moment - Lucky, Jason Mraz Ft Colbie Colliat.

song-girl =]x

Dont give in! 17/02/09

The world is so complex, yet all we need to do is communicate. That's why relationships fall apart between good friends, lovers and even governments. Why do we make it so hard for ourselves, by jumping to conclusions or resorting to violence. When we could just communicate, showing a little compassion, not allowing things to blow up in our faces. People are so inhumane, yet we make the basis of the word.

Why do people enjoy hurting others? Why are we cruel to one another? It isn't right but who is willing to say it is wrong? Some grow up in pain and suffer, they live in a world where pain is like love and so like to share it around just like they were taught. Others like to cause pain because they are insecure about themselves, it isn't right. But who is going to stop it. It isn't needed, it isn't essential. But its become apart of human society, thousands of people go through this pain and suffering, yet there is no need.

Why cant we communicate?

Song Of The Moment - Best Of You ,Foo Fighters

Song girl =] x

Its not all about boys...16/02/09

I think it is important to start the year by writing goals of accomplishable tasks for the time ahead. I planned to do it this year, im one of those fanatic people who loves to make lists, lists for anything and everything. i.e. playlists, To do lists etc. When i was younger i used to have a 'Top 5 Cute Guys' list. I so dont do that anymore. . .

My goals for 2009 are:

1. To do everything possible to enable myself the best possible position for prefect next year.

2. To gain Level 2 NCEA certificate with a 'merit' endorsement atleast.

3. I will have participated at the highest possible level in chosen sports by November 2009.

4. I will achieve an average of 'Excellence' grades in P.E, Drama and English.

5. I will become a proficient user of Photoshop by deadline date

6. I will offer myself for a part in the KKHS production

7. I will fully investigate the requirements for the entry into tertiary study for a career in sports massage beyond secondary school.

8. To find a basic job with good pay.

9. To have a non - long distance relationship for once!

Lets see how it goes.

Song-girl =]x

Forbidden Love

The reason for my blog being named Forbidden Love, is well. I am sort of stuck in it. I have someone so close to me, i know we are perfect together but we cant be a couple.

He's my rock in this earth, he is what keeps me alive, we started being close friends about a year ago and have been inseperable ever since, we always said that when we were older we'd have a relationship. But no one would have known we would want to so soon. I usually ring him every night before i go to sleep, theres something so soothing about talking to him before i close my eyes, well until his phone got stolen. We would talk endlessly about stupid things that never mattered to anyone else but us and somehow in every conversation we would end up talking about us. He makes me laugh and hes actually one of the few mature guys, well kind of. We are so alike, its not funny but hilarious.

He is a different kind of handsome, because you cant call him cute or hot cause it just sounds tacky. He is talented in many ways and has the sweetest laugh, that you cant help joining in on. I dont know where id be without him or what state id be in. As tacky as it sounds he makes me whole, and i wouldn't be the same person without him. Song of the moment - Thinking Of You, Katy Perry.

Song-Girl =]x

Back to the present day. 10/02/09

I recently went back to school, getting up at 7 o'clock to put on the same blue, white and green uniform everyday. Its just sounds so appealing, doesnt it? Well atleast i have Bio to look forward to!



Paolo* is an exchange student in my Bio class. Paolo, ahh Paolo, is from Italy and of corse inherited the sexy italian accent. He is tall, with a confident posture, like a gladiator after defeating his opponent. Paolo has short black hair and indearing eyes. The first time i was in Paolo's presence in Bio was like an arsonist at a fireworks factory. I went to get leaflets off a bench and turned around and walked straight into his masculine framed body. I looked up at him all wide eyed and cooey. He gazed down at me as though i was a damsil in distress. "Sorry" i said in the sweetest sounding voice possible. I managed to find my sit and sat down it with a sigh ah paolo! Song of the moment - Walking On a Dream, Empire of The Sun.

What is it with foreign boys, there all so gorgeous. Are we to used to our own. Maybe they should create a foriegn dating service. Ahh only in heaven.

Song-Girl =]x