I look back on this night and i can't help to feel love and happiness. I had been invited to an Organisations Celebratory Dinner that i am strongly attached to but cannot name for legal reasons. I had been invited as i was to hopefully be awarded with a major prize. I also wanted to go because of a boy. Yes they always come into it somehow. This boy was named Ryan* and lived near where the Dinner was to be held. He had a different personality to other boys, he was sensitive and seemed to care what i said or what my opinions were. He was tall, light skinned and dark haired. He never wore shorts and spent his summer holidays watching TV and drawing animated characters. He listened to Metallica and enjoyed pulling practical jokes.
I arrived at the dinner a little late and everyone had arrived before me, they were mulling around the entrance chatting and sipping Champagne. I entered a packed room of at least 500 people or that's what it felt like. I wore a classic LBD and had my long hair out and wavy. I did the rounds first, getting in my last minutes of greasing and kissing up to the important decision makers. I spotted Ryan from across the room wearing a trench over, a plain white collared shirt and a Red tie. I have to say he looked pretty fine, but the one thing i will never forget was when he looked at me for the first time that night. I walked into the circle directly in front of him and he just gaped at me and said quite loudly "Wow". Everyone turned to see what he was 'wowing'about. Only to find me, a slightly bit pinker in the cheeks. All i feel now is sadness when i look back on the moment.
We went into the Awards room, that was decked out to the n-th degree. Tables littered the floor and making it extremely awkward to manoeuvre to your tables. I found my table that i was allocated to, but had lost Ryan in the process. As fate would have it, there was one place left on our table. So i text Ryan the directions. Unfortunately my ex-boyfriend was sat next to me and through out the whole dinner lent on me. Ryan starred so hard at him, like was contorting Calvin's* body into painful positions with his eyes. Calvin and I only lasted a month, He was an island boy, with the classic island features. He was just taller than me, stocky, with a brown eyes and hair, and a tan complexion. But he had the island butt too! When the award i was nominated for was called for, i did not receive it. But it honestly didn't bother me that night as all i could think about was Ryan. It played havoc with my mind through out the night.
Sitting on the table next to us was Mike*, I had met him the weekend before for the first time, he appealed to me. He had an athletic build and a gentle face. His eyes were so expressive, sometimes i just caught myself staring into them unintentionally, reading his life story. His smile was sweet but has this remotely cheeky side to it. His hair was brown and curly with ringlets and it complimented his tan skin perfectly. I couldn't help but flirt with him too. He was a player, i knew it and i knew that we couldn't be more than VERY close friends. Song of that moment - Cookie Jar, Gym Class Heroes ft The Dream.
Where as i was completely comfortable with Ryan, he seemed perfect. So that night after raving with Mike, i stole Ryan's phone and left a draft message on it. I really like you, and haven't stopped thinking about you all night, please put my mind to rest. He text me a minute later, saying "That's a first a girl i like actually likes me too". You wouldn't believe how amazing i felt right at that time in moment. I think love feels a lot like when you spin around really fast in a field during Spring. You have a feeling of intensity from the motion and an incredible feeling in your stomach. Then you have these smells that leave you feeling so mellow. I left not long after that, Ryan gave me a massive hug. I couldn't get my smug grin off of my face after that and my phone didn't stop beeping all night. Song of the moment - Im Yours, Jason Mraz
Song-girl =]x
*Names Changed
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